You may have noticed after my third date with Green Eyes, I stopped writing about it. It feels like it’s time to fill you in, one piece at a time…After the third date, I was starting to overanalyze the textmessages, and anxiously await the next. I was thinking about him more, and getting jealous about his other dates. I was starting to like him. Nothing crazy, just that beginning stage when you realize you sort of have a thing for someone you didn’t feel this excited about the first few times you met. So, when he mentioned not wanting to see someone else he’d been dating, I was more than happy to help him turn her down. Looking back, rereading this conversation, I find it very interesting –but I’ll get to that part of the story later…

I should also mention that out of the blue, Blue-ish Eyes texted me the night before, asking if I wanted to get a drink in my neighborhood. I guess that’s when I reconfirmed I’m not a dating-multiple-people-at-once kind of person. My interest had shifted towards Green Eyes, and I wasn’t feeling the need to date someone else I didn’t feel much of a connection with. It was like I was just dating others in hope of it curbing my jealousy when he dated other girls. I wanted the options on the table to make it all feel fair…

Of course, then I started to think there was no other girl…

…And then I started thinking I was the someone else he wanted to pursue. I figured the “half true” was because of how openly we were still dating other people as well. I still don’t really know much more of what to make of it, it didn’t really come up again.
I was excited to have someone to think of as just a little more special than the other people I know. A someone who would pop into my head “is it them?” with every text notification I got. A someone who I could smile about when daydreaming on my commute to work. A someone for my mind to focus on when I felt alone.

…Story continues in the next post…